My main goal on New Years Eve ever since I got sober was to stay off the roads after 5 pm. One of the women I sponsor was chairing a meeting at 5:30 pm. I couldn’t miss it.
I had watched her go in and out of sobriety (mostly out), in and out of rehab, hospitals, CPS almost taking her kids, crashing her car — all of it. But after all of this I KNEW she wanted it now. I knew she finally wanted to stay sober.
Regarding sponsorship, my sponsor always said to me, “They have to want their sobriety MORE than you want it for them.”
I had to watch her hit her very bottom and also had to let her go and let it happen. This was part of my journey and the lesson for me to learn. She had 52 days of sobriety when one of my friends asked her to chair the New Year’s Eve meeting. I had to be there to hear her.
She looked beautiful. She was finally living in a sober living house, going to meetings every day, helping others, and most importantly, letting others help her. Her light was on.
As I sat there in the very small meeting watching her proudly tell her story, an overwhelming thought came to me that brought me to tears:
“She finally wants her sobriety MORE than I want it for her!”
That thought was such a gift for me to receive on New Year’s Eve.
Sponsorship can be such a blessing and a learning experience.
So grateful I get to show up for both.
"In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven."
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