This little doggy bowing was on the back of the number of days of sobriety I have today. My husband makes these gems for me every day. I carry it in my pocket. I have 6415 days today.
I am humbled. My husband making these numbers for me every day is a significant act of love for me, and alignment with me. It reminds me that I don’t have to do this recovery thing alone. I am forever grateful for his support in doing that for me from the beginning of my sobriety. Not taken lightly by me, for sure. I find it sitting on my counter by my coffee maker in the morning—daily. Tears. Humbled with a giggle.
At the end of my drinking I suffered humiliation. I had embarrassment for things I had done and who I had become. I was hopeless.
I found out that humility is not the same as humiliation.
Humility: Low estimate of one’s importance.
Humiliation: Feeling shame or injury to one’s dignity or self-respect.
Big difference.
I can have humility and not suffer humiliation.
Being humiliated, I am stuck in victim mode, jealousy, resentment and fear. You don’t even exist for me in that state. It’s all about me.
My ego becomes right-sized by being humble. I can look at others with respect and rejoice in their victories because mine are not threatened. I set aside my own ego and self-thought to make other’s needs important to me.
Today, humility is something I long for and intentionally try to practice. This little bowing puppy is a good reminder today that I am humble and thankful—To God and all of those who support me in sobriety.
Humbled today—again.
Ready to serve you.
I am the number in YOUR pocket today!
“Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.”
James 4:10
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